Sometimes it's a hurtful conversation, an overwhelming situation, or even just a moment when I'm by myself feeling very lonely. Many times lack of sleep, pressure, and stress play a part in me walking through the door of desperation. Usually I relate to tears... sometimes sleep. Weekends seem to be the most difficult for me. The enemy gets in my head and feeds me these horrible tapes... with lack of else to do I listen. Not only do I listen though I begin to believe the lies.
A while back a friend posted as her facebook status "Through the course of history there is no evidence of God ever letting someone down or leaving them alone.
I don't think He's going to start with you."
I've never forgotten that status... because it's so true.
Many years ago, when I was still in middle school I went to a drama and music competition. My friend Hannah is a beautiful piano player and at this competition she played the piano and sang the song called "He's Always Been Faithful" by Sara Groves. For all these years this has been my go to song when I'm feeling really defeated. It is such a simple song, but it says so much. It starts off slow, reminding me of God's majesty... then slowly the song builds in strength and assurance to the fact that God has ALWAYS been faithful to me. Even when I can't see it or feel it, He has always been there for me.
My favorite line of the song is this:
"I can't remember one single regret, in serving God only, and trusting His hand."
Today, on this day where the enemy has led me to feel lost and defeated I am singing this song to remind myself to the Lord's care, love, provision, and above all else, faithfulness to me.
"An Ebenezer is a "stone of help," or a
reminder of God’s Real, Holy Presence and Divine aid"